First Blog Post

Okay, This blog is purely for me. It is my journal, but if you have happened to stumble upon it. Well, Congrats. You can read whatever you would like and comment on whatever, but just know you are special. Because not even my family reads this from me.

I started the blog because I have too much going on in my life, and only a few people to talk to.. But it's not that I am suicidal, or looking for attention. It's that I am overwhelmed at times..

Next weekend at this time, I will be preparing for my graduation party.. I will be stopping at a few, but mostly it will be about me. For once.

Now, if anyone ever reads this, they will probably be thinking "Oh, its boy drama.." But its not.

My boyfriend and I have been together for just under 2 years at this point. We live together in this cute little rental house.

My problem is that I am far beyond my years, as some people would say. I am not a fan of high school stuff that more seniors live for. I haven't been to a basketball game since sophomore, right before I dropped band so I could work next to full time during the school year.

I am in the military, and I know that isn't really a great tribute to me being more mature than everyone my age because there are soo many 17 year olds that have enlisted in the guard, all over the country.. But not from my area. NO ONE joins the military here.. It's kind of unheard of in this part of the town. Everyone waits until they graduate high school and realize they wasted away their high school years and don't know what they want to go to college for or don't have the money to go to college..

Well.. that pretty much sums up who I am..

    But as for today. Today I am stressed to the max. I am crazy losing my mind because all I can think about is the speech I have to give next sunday at graduation.. I don't know why I volunteered for it anymore.. BLAHH!

    I am also stressed about my grandpa. You see, my grandpa has pancreatic cancer. He has since my sophomore year... But he kept telling me that he was going to live to see me graduate.. well it is so close... and I really really can't stand the thought of him dying right after graduation. I really feel like that is what it will be. God is leaving him here until he fulfills his promise to me, then God will take him away. I couldn't take that...

Well, those are my two big stressors right now, I know you will hear more about both of them as the time comes closer to each of them...

Sincerely,

Anonymous